Thanks phoebe,
Things do get easier with time..
But you never forget them I couldn't face having another dog for 3 years after my last one died but missed her so much I went to a rescue centre and got the nuttiest one out..lol..
Sorry to hear your sad news Phoebe and your problems.......do take care....we'll all still be here when you've more time on your hands and are feeling brighter.
Take care,
Ruth
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