pauline I did it again posted your reply on my own site sos we can go doo lally together.LOL

I have a lady coming to see me a week tomorrow so its eggs in one basket time and just hope that they can supply what I need for mam which is basically a dinnertime visit to try and ensure she does eat something. I phoned sick to work mid morning - my chest infection isn't getting any better and I'm so tired and stressed and so many things to see to I couldn't have done my job properly today - and its no use getting shouted at by the boss on top of everything else and he does get frustrated if I'm not on the ball. I have appointments on my next two lots of days off so I'm not getting out - never mind actually using the camera - thankfully its this time of year - if this was or is still happening in May and June I will be a basket-case and it will be me that gets the white coat that fastens at the back...........!! 'Our' Blue Tits are showing interest in the box too and getting very frustrated with the flock of goldfinch and other stuff coming to the birdtable! The birds round the caravan (we have snuck boxes up in a few of the trees round and about the van) and the great and blue tits are getting very antsty with the other birds and the coal tits - well - they're always chasing and fighting each other - its amazing something so small is so aggressive - its a right pasting they hand out to each other ..........

Good luck finding someone to look after your mam so you can take your holiday.It looks lie being a not so bad day here the sun is out but still cold, this is how I like it cant cope with it when it gets to hot.Hope you managed to get out and about this weekend as the weather was quiet good but cold.Just watching the woodpigeons there are 4 in the trees at the back of my house they seem to be getting more and more of them.Must check my camera nest box the blue tits are about hope they choose mine.
Janet

The job has to go - they are about to dismiss me on a capability stage three anyway so there is no reasonable way to hang onto it any longer and frankly the way rangers work has gone over the past few years its not worth hanging onto. I will be a lot more sane without it! Our approaching hols in the Cairngorms is what is causing the most bother now and finding help for mam daily while I go away is what I'm currently trying to organise. Getting her to let someone else in or accept and eat the food they prepare or leave for her is another matter - but I'm resigned to that now - she will end up in hospital and there is poss nothing I can do about that if this disease is taking her ability to eat .... Hope you are improving rapidly and getting out this weekend tho the weather looks a bit grim here this morning? Pauline

Dont pack your Job in yet it helps keep you sane.Hope all the appointments go ok and take some time out for yourself if possible. We just need to get our energy back to normal wont take long,
You must try and not get overly tired as this doesnt help you or your Mam.
Janet

ooh nasty - think I prefer my bad chest and wracking cough to a dose of Montesumas Revenge - your poor husband - its awful when its that serious cos you think you're going to die its the most dreadful feeling as you wonder when/if its ever going to stop.....
Not getting out suddenly as the problems with my mam escalate and our next days off like the last one's look set to be full of appointments and mither. Our Cairngorms hol is looking in jeopardy too as I can't seem to get any help for her in such a short space of time .... add to the fact that I now want to hand my notice in at work but wondering if its better to wait another couple of weeks for selfish reasons - well - its a scary time all round at the min ... perhaps 'me and him' will get out for a day on Weds - fingers crossed.....

Hi Pauline Hope your feeling much better, We have just had a dose of Sickness and D------. It knocked my husband off his feet he ended on the bedroom floor in the middle of the night nearly passing out he looked dreadful. But we are both recovering now.My 10 month old Grandson started with it so he must have passed it on to us.
Have you been anywhere interesting of late nice to hear about your jaunts out to photgraph the wildlife.
Janet

Yes I'll bet he was - something awful is stealing his wife and there is nothing he can do to stop it - heartbreaking - I didn't see it and perhaps I'm glad I didn't - it cut me to bits seeing Terry Pratchett and caused me to look it up on the web and suddenly find out all that I didn't know about this disgusting illness. I'm going to push the hospt for results as our next app is for June and I think that is too long to wait - I want some answers and medication long before then - she could worsen a lot while we wait - so I shall mither them! Haven't got any help yet - I'm still mugging along by myself - I can't find the time to go to social services and sit around in there. I suppose I'm waiting till I lose my job and then I will have more time - but having to turn up at work half of every day tho not so bad is still having to do it if you know what I mean. Hope all ok with you and yours?

Hope all went well with your Mam yesterday, how long will you have to wait for the results of her scans.John Suchet the news reader was on this morning telling about his wifes illness with Alzhiemers and how much help you need. He was very emotional but felt he needed to highlight the illness and the need for help for the carers.
Janet

Good grief is that two years ago - I remember you saying they had booked that for you and how romantic it was with a bit of wildlife thrown in! Must go to bed - I was up till 2am this morning thro one thing and another - now I can't keep my eyes open and its mams CT scan in the morning so gotta go - can't stop and chat tonight - or look see what folks have been doing ............