[Jim Ford]

Probably need to know your age and sex before much advice can be given.

How about starting by working in a group situation but not in isolation, so you don't feel 'trapped'? You can then progress on to an isolated situation.

Perhaps working with a children's group, along with a few adults may help, in which case I'd suggest 'The Woodcraft Folk'. The Woodcraft Folk are generally more 'laid back' than the scouting movement (but not always so, depending on the local group). They are also non religious and unisex. I was a leader for several years. It's hard work, but very rewarding and will 'take you out of yourself'.

Jim